One of things I have been able to do is to get back to jazzercise and working out three times a week. It's good for my weight loss and my depression. I enjoy the people there and they are very supportive of what I want to accomplish. I went back to the doctor for my first month check-up. He was very happy with 12 pounds. The last two weeks, things slowed up some, with my menstrual period, the humidity and toning up from working out. I hope I am over that slump and back on my way downward! I know it takes time, and I'm trying to be patient although I really want to feel and see the results as fast I can to keep me going and knowing all my hard work is paying off.
Right now I'm having a hard time struggling with loneliness from time to time...course this is not something new. My family have always been busy, tend to find it easier to talk to Julio if we are around, and I lost a lot of friends the last time I had a relapse with my depression This summer I have come to realize that maybe God is letting me learn to rely on him completely and then once that happens he may bring genuine people in my life. Family is frustrating. I have different expectation for relationships and family than the rest of the world. My grandmother and mom helped to instill the importance of family in me. With the business of life, I think they forget the extended family is just as important and these relationships should also be invested in. There are times, I want to back up so I don't keep getting disappointed and hurt, but I know that won't help either...so really do not know how to make peace with all of it.
Last week was Vacation Bible School. It is always a great week. This year, Tyler was old enough to also participate. They had it every night for to hours and did crafts, games and learned music all while learning about Daniel from the Bible. They can't wait till next year!
